I’m Buried and I Can’t Dig Out

11 Apr

When I’ve needed a pep talk the most is typically when I have the most trouble giving one to myself, and that has been the case lately.  My situation has been so difficult and yet personal on several levels, I’ve had no words.  Even now, I don’t want to expose all the details of my struggle.  Don’t we all have at least a little something that we could complain about, if we really wanted to grumble?

Here’s the gist of my dilemma:  God hates complaining, and I have trouble knowing how to write sometimes without feeling that I’m partly airing grievances while tacking on a word of faith at the end.

And right now I don’t feel at all like a victorious Christian, although I believe that I am.  I’m clueless about how things are going to work themselves out, which is a very helpless feeling.  I don’t know what to do!

Česky: Kříže - symbol utrpení Ježíše Krista a ...

My hope is in Jesus and all He accomplished for me on the cross. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Here’s one detail:  I just moved into this lovely, spacious apartment three weeks ago.  And because of the toxic air that even the landlord acknowledges, I must move.  Yes, they need to take responsibility; but if they don’t fully own it, I’m not capable of covering for their mishap at the moment.

And, Lord, where should we live?  I feel a little lost mostly for that reason.  I haven’t recovered from the recent move, and I’m physically disadvantaged because my arms and hands, which are permanently injured, are weakened and hurt more than usual.  So I don’t know where in the world to move and I don’t know how on earth I can achieve it apart from the management paying for me to be packed and moved, as I believe is only fair.

Here’s the pep talk part of this entry:  I have no doubt that this trial will ultimately work for my good because God is my Lord; I’m not trying to do my own thing.  (Right now I wonder if I have already somehow made a departure from God’s path; but since I’m not walking in any area of habitual sin that I’m aware of or trying to fulfill my own agenda, I’m inclined to believe I’m on the right track.)



Romans 8:28

New King James Version (NKJV)

28 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.



7 Responses to “I’m Buried and I Can’t Dig Out”

  1. 2b14u April 11, 2012 at 4:04 pm #

    God does work it together…just remember something I heard a long time ago…
    try to eat flour…yuck…try to eat lard…yuck…try to drink butter milk…probably yuck…now mix it together and work it out into dough. Shape it. Bake it. Now eat the wonderful bisquits. Grandmother worked all those yucky things together to make something wonderful. That us how it all works together.


    • Stevie McHugh April 11, 2012 at 5:12 pm #

      Thank you for the uplifting words. After the yuck, there’s the yum! 🙂


      • 2b14u April 11, 2012 at 5:18 pm #

        Yuck and yum do go together!! Great way to put it! Thanks.


  2. terry1954 April 11, 2012 at 4:10 pm #

    you are right. god is on your side, be still and listen for him to guide you


    • Stevie McHugh April 11, 2012 at 5:14 pm #

      Thanks so much. Since the post, I’ve already received one helpful answer, and I got the feeling that the pieces are just going to continue to fall into place. A huge burden lifted off my shoulders at that moment. I feel like there are prayers I need to be thanking God for right now. Thanks so much!


  3. Vince Chough April 12, 2012 at 1:12 pm #

    Saying a prayer for you Stevie. Your trust and sincerity are important in His eyes!


    • Stevie McHugh April 12, 2012 at 1:15 pm #

      Thanks so much, Vince. Your encouragement and prayers mean a lot.


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